***Psst! It's me! I'm alive and surviving summer (BARELY!)! I've been very busy collecting HUNDREDS of confessions over the summer but as of now, I've had little time to share them with you! Today, I thought you might like this little confession nugget ...
TRUTH: I don't think I have another summer in me.
BOOM. I said it. It came to me recently and I gently sat my hubby down on our front porch as the sun was setting and the children were playing blissfully in the front yard (read: yelling at each other and squirting each other in the face with a squirt gun then screaming bloody murder). I turned to him ever so sweetly, clutching my cocktail that brings me nightly sanity, and said ... "Babe. I just cannot do this for another summer. I think all of my "good years" are used up. I'm washed up. I'm no longer good at this stay-at-home-mom gig." There it was. THE TRUTH.
And the truth be told even further, I've worked and had a nanny over half of the summer days yet still find myself clinging to that nightly cocktail of bliss. If I cannot even do it HALF of the summer days then truly, it IS time to fully hang up my SAHM hat.
The fact is, being the CEO of Monitoring Electronics Usage or the COO of Negotiations and Fight Management is just NOT the job I signed up for. AT ALL. The very fact that none of my children can BREATH without someone being annoyed ... is ANNOYING. If only I had out a nickel jar out for every time I say "don't touch your brother" this summer -- I would have been rich -- OFF NICKELS!!!!!!
Have there been wonderful moments, yes ... but honestly they have been mostly through travel and weekends. The week days have been filled with hustling and bustling kids to camps, VBS, play-dates and activities. If we aren't doing these we are combating boredom because apparently when you ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING AND WANT FOR NOTHING then you are extra bored. God forbid none of the ONE MILLION neighbor kids are home because then the "I have nobody to play with whining begins" ... and that is when I CHECK OUT. Mama ain't got NO TIME for that. "GO OUTSIDE" I say for the 1000th time!!!
As summer winds down, let's all raise our evening sanity cocktails in a collective toast! As we embark on school again we will trade the boredom & fighting with homework woes & the bustle of fall frenzy...and likely will will still be raising our evening cocktail to chase away the insanity and find a few minute of peace. Cheers to you Mama's and cheers to a lengthy care.com search for me next Spring! #totallynotkidding